Things just happened unexpectedly in this short period, and it was that difficult how to react well. Suprisingly, I chose the not to speak any words nor any explainations. I was feeling rather fearful of how you all will react and I avoided. I miss the times I'm being spoonfed, babysitted and all this things just naturally came for me. Words of advices and jokes which entertains me. But now the new environment is totally dissimilar. Feelings of uncomfortable and tense throughout. It eventually affected me lots, and I get do very irritated at times.
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For this past months I've been much self-conscious then to the people around me. Non-sentimental and insensitive of me I can say. I regretted that I have seldom cherish those moments while they were around me. To think, I always seems lethargic among and frequently procrastinate my responsibilities as a friend, a person should be. I never had put much effort as they were to me, all I take it as it was supposed to be.
